Looking back at it now, with what he knows now...he feels guilt too. It gnaws at him with every breath, every moment of his miserable life. But the most he'll say about that guilt is that he refuses to let it happen again here, with this second chance. That he'll destroy himself completely before he willingly let's harm befall Xiao Xingchen again.

And he wishes to try and do better, be better for that same man. Even if it does end up with his own destruction. He's accepted he'll die, that doesn't bother him.

Wen Qing's words, when she decides on them, have him blink at her with a flash of confusion before he slowly nods. "...I know." Oh how well he knows. "I'm trying to do things differently here," he says with a shrug. Even if he might be doing some of them badly.